Widow post , Grief post,
Today is 23 months since Parker died.
We met on 8-8-2008 and were together for two months shy of 8 years, 3 of those were married.
On May 8th 2016 I had no idea that it would be the last time an 8th of the month would make me smile in the same way.
Eventually I’ll stop noticing them, I don’t actually try to notice the date.
I am kind of amazed at how much I don’t remember from two years ago. And also how many things blur.
“Was that before Parker or After . . . . ”
And as a cute side story to that . . . . One of my favorite memories of Parker, Kidlet and I was when we had been together for 3 years or so . . . . it was actually the winter before we gifted her the title of Mother (I know because I remember the house we lived in) and we were discussing something and Kidlet said . . . . “That was Before Parker, so it doesn’t count . .. nothing happened BP, before Parker . . the only things that count are things that happened AP”
Its amazing how much the memory blurs in 2 years. How much you realize doesn’t matter, and what actually does.
I’m actually okay today . . .more okay than I have been in a few weeks.
I miss Parker. I love her and as much as I love my life now, and do not want who I was back, I miss her light in this world.