Really Real Mental Health Post
It’s 12:03 AM and I’m currently eating 2 packs of trail mix even though I’m not actually hungry. But, those 2 packs of trail mix equal the 350 calories I need to eat with the Latuda I take to control my depression. I normally take it with dinner, but we just got home and I didn’t have it with me.
Latuda isn’t like some medications, it won’t just bother my stomach if I don’t eat with it. It won’t work at all unless I have enough calories with it. Luckily I had a doctor that explained it to me. A lot of people are just handed prescriptions and sent on their way. I bought these packs of trail mix knowing that sometimes I’d need something quick and easy for right before bed, if I didn’t take it with a meal earlier in the day.
I screwed up with a bunch of other medications today. I forgot to take my morning meds when I got up, and we almost immediately left the house and have been gone since then. I figured it out pretty quickly, but by then it was too late to turn around.
I used to carry a full days worth of meds in my purse, but at this point it’s been a year since I’ve gone more than 2 weeks without something changing and it was hard to keep the purse medications current. I was afraid of taking the wrong meds if I ever tried to rely on them. I’m also really good at following my routine of morning meds when I have my coffee, and night meds before I lay down.
Except I didn’t have coffee before I left the house this morning.
That meant none of my anxiety medication was in my system while we were at a very crowded public event. None of my anti-inflammatory was in my system while I was sitting in a car for a 2 hour ride each way, or standing and walking for a good portion of the day. By the evening I was feeling a significant amount of psych med withdraw. I was generally grumpy, overly anxious and just felt mentally ick and physically “off” for the last half of our day.
Withdraw doesn’t just happen from narcotics or addictive substances. A lot of psychiatric medications have some amount of withdraw effects of varying severity. It’s a definite, quick, incentive to remember my medication each time.
I mean, if staying emotionally stable,
wasn’t incentive enough.