Really Real Writers Post

Today I have writers block.

It’s the second day of NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) and I’m supposed to write 2000 words and I can’t figure out where to start.

I’m really trying not to judge myself over this, especially since my homework this week (from DBT) is to practice nonjudgementalness.

But I’m having a hard time even writing this, it’s coming out one broken sentence at a time.

One of the harder things I’ve had to figure out since deciding to do NaNoWriMo is how do I blog each day (my current goal), which is around 400-500 words, and then write another 2000 or so words towards a book.  Since I’m writing a nonfiction book (I’m a rebel) about my past, I could technically find a way to roll some of my posts into my writing for the book, but I’m not sure how that would look.  How would I make it work as far as flashbacks and what the writing style would be.

It probably would have helped if I would have started with an outline instead of writing from the seat of my pants.  My English teachers would be appalled!

Personally, I tend to go with the “fake it till ya make it” approach to writing and keep pushing keys and putting letters on the screen until they form words and those words start making some sense.

Some days I end up with a pretty horrible post, and other days I hit it out of the park. The ones I tend to think are the worst are often the ones that people react the best to.

The blog is important to me, and writing each day has become important to me.  I’m surprised at how easily I managed to add writing more often to my daily routine.  It’s second nature now, even on days where writers block is a problem.  Even being out of town at my sisters house, I’m still making it a priority to find time to write this.

NaNoWriMo is important to me because I’ve been told I need to write a book more times than I can count, and while I don’t think I’ll be able to write a usable book in 30 days.  I do think that step one is writing out my past. I think I’ll do a lot of processing through getting it on the screen.  It’ll help me work through a lot of the trauma.  I expect it’s going to be a difficult 30 days, but from there I can start deciding if I actually want to move forward with the idea of a book, or if I want to step away from it.  And I’ll already have a lot of the words on the screen and able to move them around to where they may be usable.

Or I can start over from the beginning.

I guess this post didn’t turn out so badly after all.  I just had to push through the worst of the writers block.  Now it’s time to start that 2000 words for the day!