This is a Really Real Mental Health Post.
I’m having one of those chicken and egg moments. Which came first?
Am I feeling better because I started crafting?
Or was I able to start crafting because I was feeling better?
It’s hard to tell.
Sometime late yesterday evening I pulled myself out of bed and started playing around with the vinyl cutter. I’ve made quite a few things since then and now I want to make more, more, more!
Eventually I’ll run out of ideas and then maybe I’ll be bummed again, or maybe I’ll pick up one of my other crafts.
I have plenty of supplies but only so many projects. It’s frustrating that I love to craft but have no interest in selling (it takes the joy out of it). I can only store so many bracelets, vinyl projects, etc and I don’t always feel competent enough to give it away as gifts most of the time.
Anyway, back to the chicken and egg problem.
When I’m depressed, I can’t make myself get involved in this stuff. I can’t even come up with ideas of what to work on. I just have no interest.
Eventually I can force it, and then I can normally run with it.
Maybe that’s because I’m already pulling out of it, and the crafting just helps me come the rest of the way out.
I’m the same way with any activity. When I’m depressed nothing seems interesting, but once I can get something to take hold, it helps me pull my way out.
The gym definitely helped keep me going this past week. I went 6 days out of 7 and feel like I’m back in the groove of that. Batwoman and I sat down today and scheduled this week out as well.
For now I feel like I may be on stable ground, and I hope I can stay here over the next two weeks. This time of year is so, so hard and honestly, I think I’m handling it really well.
Time to go craft a happier day.