This is a Really Real Mental Health post.

I couldn’t sleep last night.

Even after avoiding a nap yesterday, and taking my multiple night time sleep medicaitions

I laid there wide awake for hours.

I finally got up and did some designing for a new card.

Eventually, at 6am I was able to lay back down and sleep, but I tossed and turned.

My alarm went off at 9.

I snoozed.

I snoozed.

I snoozed.

Eventually I sent a message to someone at PHP telling them I wouldn’t be joining today, I just needed sleep.

I couldn’t figure out why I had such a hard time sleeping last night.

Oh, yeah.

I had a nice big cup of chai in the evening.

Chai has caffeine and I didn’t even think about it because it had been so long since I had it.

I feel bad for missing my groups, but sleep is also important for my mental health and I would not have gotten much out of the program if I was so tired.

Today still feels like a better day. The fog isn’t there. Maybe I’m turning the corner and things will continue to improve.

Maybe the meds are kicking in.

I’ve put together about half of my holiday cards for the season. I’m so much further ahead than I was last year, and I have more cards to make this year.

I’m excited to send them out.

Excitement feels good.