This is a Really Real Mental Health Post.
I’m going to add to the sea of posts about it.
I process through writing and if I’m thinking about it this way, someone else is too, and if someone else is too, they need to know they’re not alone.
I’m trying so hard not to get swept up in the panic. I’m trying to find that fine line between reacting out of fear and doing my part.
And I feel that panic under the surface. Partly because I’m surrounded by posts about it, constant conversation about it, constant warnings about it, constant talk about statistics, flattening the curve, do this, don’t do that.
I’ve started to panic a few times. I even got stuck in bed over it. Completely consumed by emotions that overwhelmed me. I reached out and got some advice from logic minded, calm, people in my life.
I decided instead of panicking, I’d be prepared if I get this. I got some cough meds and refilled my inhaler. I made sure we had some soup. I’m looking into getting some extra refills of my regular meds.
And, now I’m questioning every activity I have in my life. Do I keep going to therapy, group therapy? What about support groups? How about Physical Therapy?
In what ways can I minimize my contact with the outside world, while still doing self care.
Therapy is a hard, hard choice. It’s a necessary part of my week. But my therapist spends all day in a hospital setting with a large group of people.
Group therapy is a another hard call. It’s a helpful part of my week. The therapists in the program are amazing. The group I meet with is amazing. But group settings are not ideal right now, and those same therapists are involved. They are in a large hospital group, all day, every day.
Support groups, I think are an easy call. I can avoid them. I even hope they put the groups on hold for a few weeks (NAMI has), but that’s not my call to make.
And my knee hurts like a bitch. But it’s hurt for months, and there are lots of older people at PT who are recovering from surgeries and have to be there. I can minimize my contact with them by holding off for a month or two. Maybe, if I get it, I’ll keep from spreading it. Maybe I’ll avoid exposure.
I feel like most of us are going to get this as some point. But as everyone says, flattening the curve.
Flattening the curve gives medical personnel a better chance at keeping up.
Because I have friends who stand to get really, really sick. I have friends who will likely end up hospitalized.
I have friends who might break the number one rule. (#1. Don’t die.)
Flattening the curve gives them a fighting chance.
And if I can minimize their risk, I feel like it’s my job to do so.